5-17-03 @ 12:06 A.M.
So I wrote this thing for Kathryne's school. It's like 5 paragraphs about Kathryne's friendship and stuff about her. The first paragraph is describing her. The second paragraph is about my best memory with her. The third paragraph is about eh beginning of our friendship. The fourth is about "what do I think about where our friendship will go after Jr. High (yeah that one's funny cause I'm out of junior high and I'm homeschooled so it doesn't really mean anything. haha.) The 5th one is about the funniest thing Kathryne has ever done/said whatever. I was nervous cause I've never done anything for REAL that other people were gonna see and actual teachers and stuff but she loved it alot so I'm glad. It's 4 pages long. It's great cause it's all from the heart and stuff. haha. Gosh I love Kathryne so freaking much, it's insane! I'm very excited about tomorrow. YAY FOR HEIDI! hehe. She's soooo great. Oh I love her. I'm excited the show too. I love shows. Not going to them for a while cause there weren't really any good one's (til Garrett's party) really made me realize how much I love them. It's just great. I thought about the Duprees earlier cause I was listening to Bjork. They're so gorgeous. Shoot. haha. Man tonight sucks. I could kill myself. Someone puhlease pray for me. It seems like I've been going through some stuff lately. Not like something's wrong or something bad is happening at all it just seems like I've been a bi*** (I'd use the word jerk but it's not as appropriate) kinda lately. I have no freaking idea why either. I'm gonna pray tonight. Or at least I want to. Darn this whole no privacy thing. I just need to be broken I suppose. I guess I couldn't really explain how I sorry I was cause I guess noone knows that I've noticed it because the way that I've been acting lately is something I've hated my entire life. Like just an attitude I've hated my whole life. Gosh I can't explain it. I've always prayed that I'd never become this way. This way I've been acting cause I hate it. I hate it more than anything almost. I'd give almost anything for it to be over. Just to be how I used to be and for whatever the heck it is that's been making me act this way to be gone. I wish I could blame my no privacy on the computer being in here but it's not that anymore. It's also cause Lydia took her AC out in the winter and now that it's not in there she wants to sleep in here cause I have an AC and now it's not against Lydia cause I want her to sleep in here and all and I guess the reason just comes back to me not asking her to leave cause it's not that I'd feel rude for asking cause I know she'd understand but then I'd feel stupid for like her knowing about me being upset. I guess I just hate for people to know when I'm upset and like I don't like talking about it just cause and I don't like being asked questions. I don't know I guess maybe that's pride? I hope not. I really don't wanna be prideful. That's stupid. Well anyway I feel a little bit better cause I cried. Crying feels so good. But I still need to pray though cause crying is relief, but prayer is healing. Man what a good phrase! I just thought of it too. neat. Ok well enough rambling. If you love me you'll sign my guestbook. Bye.
-Sarah-
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