And no one should ever feel the way that I feel now.

A walking open wound, a trophy display of bruises

And I don't believe that I'm getting any better.

Any better.

Waiting here with hopes the phone will ring

And I'm thinking awful things

I'm pretty sure that few would notice.

And this apartment is starving for an argument.

Anything at all to break the silence.

Wandering this house like I've never wanted out

And this is about as social as I get now.

And I'm throwing away the letters that I am writing you

Cause they would never do, I would never do.

Never

Waiting here with hopes the phone will ring

And I'm thinking awful things

I'm pretty sure that few would notice.

And this apartment is starving for an argument.

Anything at all to break the silence.

But don't be a liar

Don't say that "everything's working" when everything's broken.

And you smile like a saint but you curse like a sailor

And your eyes say the jokes on me.

But, I’m not laughing

You’re not leaving

Who do I think I am kidding?

When I’m the only one locked in this hell

Waiting here with hopes the phone will ring

And I'm thinking awful things

I'm pretty sure that few would notice.

And this apartment is starving for an argument.

Anything at all to break the silence.

So don't be a liar

Don't say that "everything's working" when everything's broken.

And you smile like a saint but you curse like a sailor

And your eyes say the jokes on me.

ah, screaming dashboard in a car with your sisters and best friend, how great. I'm listening to that song right now. I like Dashboard. Remember when I used to hate them? haha that's funny. everyone hates me for doing so. Joy used to hate Pedro and now she likes 'em and Lydia used to hate Fiona Apple and now she likes them and Kathryne used to hate Bjork and now she likes her so everyone can just stop being crabby about it. haha. So last night my beautiful Kathryne came over and we hungout for a while and we were just laying down talking on my bed and out of NOWHERE all the electricity in the entire neighborhood just went out. For like 5 seconds we made "What?" faces and then we all start screaming our heads off. hahaha it was hilarious. So yeah we lit candles and talked for a while and then we (me, Joy, Lyd, Kat) decided to go to IHOP and play games. Right as were getting up to leave, all the electricity came back on and we were like "awww that ruins the mood" so I ran around turning all the lights off. hahahaha. it was funny. So yeah we went to IHOP and played SkipBo and I ate onion rings. mmmm, they were good. We just sat there talking for a while. Kathryne got a bunch of ketchup on the table so we were cleaning it up and then I sat back down and Kathryne threw a piece of ice at me and I threw it back at her and it landed on the guy behind her's table and I was like "OH NO! I'm so sorry!" I kept apologizing profusely. He was ok with it cause "It didn't hit him" and he freaking brought the piece of ice back! Who does that? He was one of the sweetest-spirited guys I think I've ever talked to. He was just so dang sweet and he wasn't like stupid cocky I'm gonna hit on you sweet he was ACTUAL sweet. Like kind. Oh he was just so precious. I loved that guy! So yeah we left and turned Dashboard on (really loudly)and screamed to all the songs. It was fun. So yeah Kathryne was gonna spend the night but we just ended up taking her home cause it was already pretty late and she didn't wanna wake up really early for school. Ok so I wrote all this earlier in the morning but it's just been sitting here unsubmitted all day and I just woke up from a nap to Dashboard and oh my goodness what an amazing feeling. wow. too bad I can't describe it. Tonight I'm going to Living Waters for the show. I'm happy about that. Well anyway I'm really tired and don't have much else to say. I love you. bye.

-Sarah-