I cried so much last night. about different stuff.

I want to go to the show tonight but my aunt, cousin, and grandma are coming here from Missouri so I can't.

that means I have to clean my house really well which isn't the funnest thing in the world.

It's Shelly's birthday today. Happy birthday! I love you SO much! Yay that I get to see you today!

last night I watched "The Green Mile" and man did I cry. I always cry alot when I watch that movie. It's so freaking sad.

I played skip-bo last night with Lydia and we were just sitting there talking about something and then I just started crying some more. Not about the movie but about other stuff. It was pretty sad.

I want to still hangout with Heidi Elder tomorrow. WE WILL DANGIT. We're going to a wedding. Shawn and Jamie's wedding. I don't have anything to wear for it. Maybe we'll go dress/skirt shopping today. Since we're going out anyway and there's this skirt at Wal-Mart that I think I want to buy. I hope it's still there.

I need to lose weight still.

I need to shower too. I just don't feel like it right now. Maybe later.

I wonder what time Shelly wants to meet at the mall. She's supposed to call and tell us. I can't believe she's not a teenager anymore...and that she'll never be one again. Man...6 freaking years I've known her. that's longer than I've known any of my other friends. I miss her. I miss hanging out with her. Maybe on Sunday (cause she doesn't work then).

I guess this is the part where I tell you what's been up.

Jennifer came over on Wednesday. We hungout for a while and then went to the youth group meeting thing. It was more of a fun event for the kids instead of a bible study type thing. We ate, played with water balloons (not including myself), people did rockclimbing (not including myself either). I just played with a scooter and watched people play basketball. hungout with Jennifer and Miranda most of the time. there were alot of people there. I was surprised.

After the thing, me, Lyd, Joy, and Jennifer went to Kathryne's house and we all hungout for a while. We watched part of Oldschool. It wasn't funny because I was in a really terrible mood.

ALWAYS DRAMA IN THE CLUB. that's for sure.

We were gonna spend the night but Joy decided that she just wanted to go home and then Lydia wanted to go home and so Jennifer was gonna go with them so there was no point in me spending the night so we just went home.

We came home and all of our family had a "discussion" for about an hour and Jennifer was there but it was like there wasn't someone else there. she is SO part of the family! Most definitely a Blackwell. If it would've been someone else, it might've been weird, but it was just so normal. I liked it (not the discussion cause that wasn't great) but I liked that it just felt so...normal with her there.

After the discussion, me, Lydia, and Jennifer went to bed and starting watching "Armageddon" but after a little while, started to fall asleep so we turned it off.

We went to sleep around 1:30. we woke up at like 6:something A.M. and watched the lightning/rain for a while and then went back to sleep and woke up at 11:00. We watched part of The Green Mile but then she had to leave.

Yesterday morning was alright but last night sucked. Nothin really "happened", I've just been going through some stuff. It's not fun, I'll tell you that much, but it'll be alright (YOU'RE LYING, but I don't mind tonight), I'm sure.

I really miss everyone alot. It's a shame that we can't go tonight. Ohhhwelll.

I wanted to see Finding Nemo tomorrow with Heidi and Mark, but now that our relatives will be here, we probably won't. oh well. We'll see it someday.

I'm gonna go clean my house now. bye.

-Sarah-